September 12, 2006
Losing control
Sixteen weeks. That's where I am and I'm finally starting to feel pretty okay. Except at night, that's when I feel akin to the goodyear blimp, like something that needs to be popped, a balloon or pimple, or something. It's why, I think, I'm not getting any podcasting done, I usually do it at night when the house is quiet and the natives are sleeping. I'm also just stuck on this episode, trying to emcompass, include, I don't know...talk about the last few months, and it's sticking me. Bill suggested I just skip it and do the next episode, which I've got nothing for, got anything, send it my way!
I did finish my clapotis a few days back, and baby hasn't left my back. Seriously, the last vestige of youth just left me, I'm now a knitter, with a potbelly, who never goes out, who's gassy at night, and who wears a shawl all the time! I'm gonna have to knit another, but not a clapotis, jeez, as much as I adore it now, I despised it half through the straight section. Tedium. There will be pictures but not until after Saturday when I get to don it with my non-maternity slinky dress for a rockstar wedding, yeah baby! Stay tuned for those pictures.
I updated the shop yesterday, as promised, but it's mostly sold out now. Only one yarn left, I think. I love my speedy fast customers. I've been trying to post at different times on Mondays because I've been getting complaints from people in different countries and timezones, hence the 4pm update. This yarn is not a representation of this, but I've been experiementing with less neat spinning. I'm a very neat spinner, in case you didn't know. Even in my wildest designs, I spin neat. I like smooth or controlled texture. I don't like fuzzes, unplanned lumps, over-spun bits, underspun bits. I like it neat, and most of the time I like that I like it neat. I'm trying to be able to let some of that go (not all the time, just occasionally), but giving up control has always been hard for me. It used to be a major problem, the major problem in my relationships. But apparently it is possible for me to concede, as is evidenced by the 3 loads of dirty laundry and 2 loads of clean laundry in the basement. Bet that's a bit of control Bill wishes I'd take back.
So yesterday I spun 2 yarns from uncarded scraps all tossed together in a bowl, all different stuff, spun as it came. It was hard but I think I could grow to like losing control occassionally. The yarn to the left is a lovely soft 2-ply that I love. I'm giving it 2 days and if it doesn't sell, it's gonna make me some mittens!
Oh, update next week will be new and different, also, will have a barter yarn. Yay.
Posted by jacey at September 12, 2006 08:27 AM