September 02, 2006

Living, in theory

You know when I said I was working on a mini-audio play? Yeah, well that was in theory. In theory I'm working on a mini-audio play. In theory I'm working on the next podcast. In theory I'm updating more regularly. And in theory I'm not napping endlessly and complaining to anybody that has ears to listen. But all that is over...well, not over as much as, well, not over at all. I'm still going to nap and complain but now I'm going to get off my arse and write the audio-play, record the podcast, update. In theory, of course.

Honestly though, I am feeling a little more motivated and a little less depressed, and it's not just because the government has finally seen my inner value and called me to do my civic duty -- yep, this gal's got jury duty and I'm strangly pleased as punch. But back to feeling better, which I am, mostly.

I've been depressed, wanting to scream at this growing belly why don't I feel better yet?, and I know it's not the fault of the baby, but still, in my mind I call it bad baby and imagine myself dressing it in acrylic handknits until it's 4, as punishment. Bad Baby! Which is actually a bit better than it's other working title -- Pipilotta Pinecone. Yeah, we're not so good with the serious names around these parts. Little Bit was almost Collapso, heh. Don't you wonder what his true moniker is?

And now down to bidness (oh my, too much netflixed the wire, which is so good it actually makes me love and fear my city at the same time). I didn't knit at all during my times of woe but in the last 2 weeks have started back with half a vengence (the other half being reserved for Pipilotta Pinecone, do you think a granny squared flounced jumper might be suitable?) Here are some things I've done or am working on, plain handdyed socks, handdyed jaywalkers, a clapotis and last night I CO for sizzle in bamboo (not pictured).

Posted by jacey at September 2, 2006 07:15 PM
Comments

Good to see you back. Hang in there.

Posted by: jodi at September 2, 2006 07:52 PM

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. My voice is yours, whenever you're ready. I likely have enough to keep me occupied if you take a little longer *g*

Posted by: Rabbitch at September 2, 2006 09:18 PM

That clapotis looks awfully familiar. As in I'm knitting a clapotis in the same color, same yarn (I think) and have about the same progress. Freaky. (http://stlrachelknits.blogspot.com/2006/08/august-knitting_25.html).

Glad to hear you are feeling better. Can't wait for the next podcast!

Posted by: Rachel at September 2, 2006 10:21 PM

Maybe I should give my dying ovaries and uterus a name. I curse them all the time, I being at the opposite end of the fertility scale and suffering the menopausal woes which oddly make you very tired and depressed. Just keep fighting - you are a tough one. At least at the end of this you will have Pipilotta and I will just have unsightly facial hair and big ears and that dreaded middle age spread!

Posted by: Diane at September 3, 2006 09:36 AM

Hang in there Jacey. It will get better. And knitting is an excellent antidote to depression. Feel better soon!

Posted by: Jennie at September 3, 2006 09:48 AM

Nice looking socks, Jacey. I'm so glad to have you back in blogging land that I don't care how often you post. Will keep checking back regularly. And I'll send you any extra strength the universe has to spare so you can get through this. I'm sure Little Pip will be well worth it!

Posted by: Michele at September 3, 2006 03:04 PM

Hey Jacey...
It's good to see you out and about! Thanks for coming to the knit meetings...it's great to finally meet you! I know you are having a rough time... Even tho we barely know each other, my ears are yours if you ever just need to vent. Drop me a note...

Heather

Posted by: Heather at September 3, 2006 09:04 PM